do you believe in love at first sight it's an illusion i don't care


	do you believe in love at first sight it's an illusion i don't care it's all an illusion there's too much confusion down down down with your heart find find find the secret turn turn turn your head around baby we can do it we can do it alright do you believe in love at first sight it's an illusion i don't care do you believe i can make you feel better too much confusion come on over here can we get together i really i really want to be with you come and check it out with me i hope you i hope you feel the same way too...

Monday, September 18, 2006 ::: WHAT YOU WANT VS WHAT YOU NEED I want too many things. I keep reminding myself it's getting what I need that matters. Not what I want. But I keep making plans on how to getting things I want. Those things I know exactly that I don't need. This scares me a little, really. Maybe. If I could make that baby laugh. I thought. The poor baby who can't eat on his own. Who lies there all by himself. Alone. Day and night. In a hospital crib. Nobody hugs him or carresses him. Just some strangers who make funny faces at him and hold his hands, when it's only convenient. Where's dad? Where's mom? He's surrounded by all those toys hanging around him. But his crib's forever lonely. I'm one of those strangers who drops by whenever I can. At my convenience. I've made a few funny faces. I've held his hand. He did smile a bit when he learnt this new game that I taught him. Not sure if he'd play it before anyway but he did force a smile that's genuine happiness, among all the sadness and sorrows that's surrounding him since the day he came to see this world. A world, already a cruel one, but to him it's been more than a little crueler than cruel. His little hand held held my finger. He grabbed it pretty tight. And his eyes met mine. Such engaging eyes. Was it a sense of wonder? Puzzlement? Or was it just a blank gaze? Did he ever ask, why isn't this a fair world? He had his fleeting moments. That's when he sucked his fingers - at least 3 fingers of his tiny right hand at the same time - he was really enjoying that moment, I could tell. Nothing tastes better than his very own fingers. Especially when that's the only one thing he could taste. I was happy that I made him smile a little bit. But if only he'd cry a bit too. I've never seen him shed a tear. And now when I come to think of it - that's the saddest part of all. ::: posted by Wings at 9/18/2006 08:34:00 AM

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it's all an illusion there's too much confusion down down down with your heart find find find the secret turn turn turn your head around baby we can do it we can do it alright do you believe in love at first sight it's an illusion i don't care do you believe i can make you feel better too much confusion come on over here can we get together i really i really want to be with you come and check it out with me i hope you i hope you feel the same way too...

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